I am very depressed today.

Yesterday, while I was cleaning, my very beloved Peacock stained glass replica fell and broke. It was a gift from my mother. It was a Glassmasters replica of my very favorite Tiffany glass window. It was originally sold at the Museum Store. Museum Store has gone out of business. So has Glassmasters. The peacock window replica is no longer being made. I searched thoroughly online last night, and thought that I had found a replacement, but there was an email today saying the site had already sold out and my order was cancelled.

I feel miserable and selfish for feeling this badly about it. It was just a Thing. It shouldn't matter this much. Especially since other people have lost so much more to the hurricane, the London bombings, the war... but that just makes it feel much much worse. Then I feel petty as well as miserable and selfish.

I also feel like it's my fault that it broke. I shouldn't have had it there. I should have figured out a better way to keep it safe. ... but it was sitting where the sunlight could come through it and it made me so HAPPY to have it there. And now it's broken. And it's broken because I liked it so much.

Please forgive me for not talking about the new roof (it's finished). Or the fact that Oregon Flock and Fiber is coming up this weekend (we're going. I'm excited). I'm really just trying hard not to fall apart completely over a stupid painted piece of glass.

I know it's asking the impossible, but if any of you know where I could get a replacement, please please please let me know. I really miss it.